Hello sweetglass, welcome to Psych Central!
We can't diagnose on the internet but it does sound like you are getting distressed. Anxiety can make us feel that way but it could be that you are on your way to psychosis. So, please seek some in real life help, go see your doctor, you do not need to live your life like this. It is not a fake problem. Hugs to you.
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