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Originally Posted by Freewilled
Dear T,
I keep wanting to "write to you" on here. Wth?! I miss you terribly all of a sudden and it is so hard for me to allow that feeling when I'm all up in my head intellectualizing how you're just a T..... /: But there is no mistaking it - I'm missing you. I either feel completely detached from you or I'm highly needy. A middle ground would be welcome....But sometimes I secretly just want to need you and for that to truly be ok with you  To be honest, I don't even know why I "need" you or what I need - it's just a yearning for you to be there. How do I talk to you about this when I go into self-loathing mode just admitting it to myself? I know as soon as it came out of my mouth I would just be overcome with anger  I NEED to work through this with you.
I have no reason not to trust you, T.
You really are in this for the long-haul, aren't you?  |
Freewilled - you have written so eloquently exactly what I am feeling right now. This is so painful. I am so sorry you are going through this. You seem to have a much better handle on it than me - I couldn't begin to put this into words but you have summed it up so well. Thank you. Good luck.
