Thanks for that link Jdog. I watched it a while back, but really needed to see it now.

Depletion, like you I think I put out this vibe that says....stay back. I don't quite know why or what or how to change it, yet. But I do think there are answers in the above link.

I think the times that do allow myself to be vulnerable, and this is only when the risks don't seem to great to me, then things go incredibly well. But when something is far more important, when the relationship is closer and more likely that I may be judged and hurt, then I find it far more difficult. The risks feel too great. I don't know if that makes sense.

But the thought of really being seen, sometimes, often, is far too scary. But I agree with what was said in the link.....its important and that way lies an authentic and content life. Hope I may get there....and you too.