Well, yeah.. I have gone multiple days without eating before. As an update, now my nurse at school is keeping an eye on me, and my psychiatrist, along with my t. My family is also super concerned about me. I made my grama cry today because I accidentally snapped at her. I feel horrible for that. My dad thinks that think my home life is horrible (which is not the case) and my pastor thinks I'm doing it for attention and because I'm being selfish.

All of this really sucks. I have been being nicer to my body. I've been eating at least a little something every day this past week to try to regulate everything and my heart rate has gone down to a normal speed. The nurse is weighing me, and so is my psychiatrist. I'm dancing the line of hospitalization, but I'm trying to ignore it and just eat what I can when I'm hungry so I don't get that horrible sick feeling.

As for my pulse, I think it was because I have a fast-paced job, and I was pushing myself really hard, so my body was trying to keep up along with the lack of nutrients. I'm trying to dodge the hospital, but I'm also trying not to freak out when I gain weight (which I've almost gained a pound since tuesday's adventure and I'm trying to keep myself composed).