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Originally Posted by AmysJourney
And I mainly talk about me, not about people in general. I make sure I say things like "I think" or "Perhaps". And I never said we do everything in life to manipulate other people, that was not what I said or meant at all.
I was talking about why I kept holding on to things, why I needed some things to keep because I needed what it gave me.
It was about how I am letting go, not that people in general have to let go.
Yes, if this thread is triggering people, then they are free to stay off it.
But I seriously am considering now whether I should stop posting my daily letters here, because it seems it can lead to confusion or to people feeling bad about what I say and that was never my intent.
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Originally Posted by AmysJourney
Yes, that is what I meant. Well, part of it.
After that hurtful statement I was unsure if I need to protect myself more from being subjected to cruel statements like that. I knew, putting myself out there bears the risk for people hurting me, attacking me and even doubting me. And I kept thinking, " For what? For not being more messed up? For being nice?" It's really the last thing I need right now. So I thought for a moment that keeping more to myself would be a safer option.
But my therapist told me that I should not give in and not give up what I have become through so much hard work. She said: "Do the opposite, use the unique voice you have been given to make yourself heard. You are not a child any more, nobody has power over you any more. Nobody can make you less. So use your voice, reach out to people and connect with your world as much as you can"
That's when she suggested the daily letter idea.
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This is important to you! You wanted your voice to be heard. Sometimes when we speak up, other people get scared or angry or frustrated, but that doesn't mean we should be quiet. What you write about is important because you have made a conscious decision not to be made to feel powerless and quiet so as to protect yourself from the cruel comments. You are being brave being so authentic especially when you have been hurt in the past by someone attacking your intent/truth. Some people may find that hard to deal with and maybe not all your words will match everyone's experiences, but that's because they are not their words but yours. Your truth.
I hope you continue to do the opposite and make yourself heard. Because quite obviously many of us have been listening. If you stop, let it be because it is right for you, no matter what.