April 2008 I walked out on my business & my marriage. I have lost my career, my relationship, and financially become devastated by my manic actions. I have tried to work two times since 2008 with different jobs and had blow outs in both due to the stress de-railing my mental health. I just started receiving SSI. Will I just have a sub-standard life of no job, no relationship, & just no real place to live on my own? I am 49 years old and can't seem to develop a recovery plan plan for my career or my life. I am wondering what others have done to recover from devastating destruction that Bipolar may have caused their life? Stress seems to be my biggest villain that holds me back. I hate answering the questions: how are you & what do you do for a living? I feel like a big waste of space and a 49 year loser who can't get together! I'm scared to be happy because that just might mean mania is around the corner! Does anyone else feel like this?
Thanks for your input.