I feel disgusting because I'm badly in need of some self-care (like a shower). I learned that triazolam isn't the best sleep med for me, but it would serve me well as an anti-manic because it slows me down for the whole next day after taking it at night. If it weren't for the total loss of memory & concentration, I'd probably take it every day - yes I know it's addictive, I do fine with benzos (been on alprazolam a year with no issues).
I have a paper to write but can't. I'm not taking it tonight, because I'm hoping the dulled down version of mania that my med cocktail allows to break through will help me write my stupid paper. The good news is I'm in a good mood.
I hope everyone is having a great day.