I'm really sorry that you feel so awful and empty, pisces22. Crying is a way of releasing emotions of sadness, and it's actually a very good thing to release those emotions. I wish I could tell you everything will be okay. The good news is you're still here, and that means you're fighting the depression because you're still alive. I agree with gayleggg that seeing a doctor and/or therapist about your feelings should help you. Keep posting on PsychCentral forums because—to quote the wise words of John Grohol—actively participating in online support groups should make you feel better.

Do you have a doctor and/or therapist? It might be helpful to consult a professional. I'm very familar with the way you are feeling. I've been battling depression for over 30 years. I know how empty it can leave a person. I did give up on life a couple of times and wound up in the hospital, with a change in medications thank goodness my mood lifted for a while. Most of the time it's tollerable but still leaves that empty feeling most of the time. I hope you can find the help you are looking for here and feel better soon.