Venting.

I'm so anxious and depressed. I just hate how fast my life turned around. I feel like I'm looking at life through someone else's eyes. I don't want this. I want to cry. I want someone to reassure me that everything will be okay but I know it won't.

I was depressed and anxious before but I had more motivation to do things, to go back to school and find a job. Now, I'm stuck. I can't move on.

I don't feel anything but at the same time I feel everything. Everything mentally and physically feels so alive but so dead. I'm scared.

Whenever I couldn't handle something or felt uncomfortable with something I'd say "I quit" "I give up" but I can't give up on life.

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It does hurt so much, I feel for you. Depression eats away at us until there is nothing left but depression. You have made the decision to keep going, at PC we can wait with you until the depression moves on.

Well, I certainly hear both of you very well on this one...esp with the "stuck" comment, and the other line "depression eats away at us until there is nothing left but depression". I sincerely wish that all of us on these forums would experience relief enough so that a "depression success story" could be written...alas, I've not reached that point yet. Much support to both of you, and all of us here on this site.

Do you have a doctor and/or therapist? It might be helpful to consult a professional. I'm very familar with the way you are feeling. I've been battling depression for over 30 years. I know how empty it can leave a person. I did give up on life a couple of times and wound up in the hospital, with a change in medications thank goodness my mood lifted for a while. Most of the time it's tollerable but still leaves that empty feeling most of the time. I hope you can find the help you are looking for here and feel better soon.

Outstanding way to phrase it.

I'm really sorry that you feel so awful and empty, pisces22. Crying is a way of releasing emotions of sadness, and it's actually a very good thing to release those emotions. I wish I could tell you everything will be okay. The good news is you're still here, and that means you're fighting the depression because you're still alive. I agree with gayleggg that seeing a doctor and/or therapist about your feelings should help you. Keep posting on PsychCentral forums because—to quote the wise words of John Grohol—actively participating in online support groups should make you feel better.

Yes, I just started seeing a doctor and a therapist this month. I can't cry for some reason, I wish I could. Thank you guys!

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I know exactly how you feel. My life has changed so radically due to depression and anxiety the last two years I am still in shock. It is like you said, it is like looking at my life as though it were someone elses. I can't believe it has gotten to this point, but it has.

I feel stuck too. That's why I'm here on psychcentral. I should have all the tools to move forward but it's painful and scary. I'm sorry you're feeling this way.