So I wanted to post back here with my progress. Things are still quite bleak at the moment but I've been getting help from various sources and I'm hoping my days of suffering are being cut back. Life continues to squeeze the life out of me but I'm not down yet.

Firstly, the counseling sessions are very welcome. I like the therapist i'm seeing even though the meetings seem extremely short when I want to discuss so much. I think I may try to find an additional counseling source because I feel like I need more attention. I've been organizing my feelings and thoughts in a journal as well. Also, a few friends have stepped forward with their support as well, including one I did not expect. So that's great too. I just wish I could spend a bit more time with them.

I'm still on mood supplements but my counselor and doctor do not want me on prescription meds, at least not yet. They feel as if they may actually have an adverse affect on my current condition. I'm still exercising and trying to eat better, but the social part of my life is still very much missing. It's my #1 goal to find something that makes me feel like I want to get out of bed, instead of just feeling like I have to. I missed a day of work this week because I just could not process anything.

So that's pretty much where I'm at, kind of so-so and still very much in a rut, but hopefully I'll get more traction soon. And as for the BBBS thing I would love to do that very much, I just need a little more time to collect myself. I'm very good with kids and I want to make that a priority, but as selfish as it may sound I still need a bit of self-repair before I dive into that.

Any additional thoughts or feedback would be great.