Hi,

Sorry for the long thread. I need some advice..

Basically my GP and myself decided that I would need a gastric band to help me loose weight. I saw the consultant who told me I had to see a psychiatrist.. But to get the operation I would need to be mentally stable for 6 months. I haven't been mental stable at all and I have been keeping my problems from my mental health worker for weeks now. But I saw the psychiatrist yesterday and told her I was doing so well, no voices, no flashbacks. I have deliberately stopped my medication and cancelling my appointments to see my mental health worker cos I wanna have the operation so I can loose weight and feel better within my self..

The thing is I am really struggling with the voices, hallucinations and flashback and I am very suicidal and just wanna self harm. My OCD is bad too..I cannot tell my mental health worker for 2 reasons. 1. I told the psychiatrist at the weight loss clinic I was doing really well and she will contact my mental health worker next week to confirm this and 2. I told my mental health worker I am not needing her or medication and if I go against that she know I had lied to the psychiatrist and her and she won't be happy I think..

I rang my mental health worker this week to cancel my appointment and she asked how I was doing and I said I was doing really well. If I ring her up and say I have lied and I am doing rubbish she will know I had lied and 2. I won't get my gastric band..

I don't know what to do.. Help??