Since I was 16, I've always had these moments where I just feel empty and hopeless. I turned to self-harm in an attempt to feel something. Over the years, I became addicted to the pain and lost what I thought was a good relationship because the guy thought I was too messed up. It was hard to explain to him or anyone that I hurt myself not because I wanted to feel something but because I like how it feels. I knew this wasn't right and I tried to talk to someone but all I got was "instead of harming yourself, why don't you try to occupy yourself with activities so you don't think about your feelings." I'm finally in a healthy stable relationship but I still can't bring myself to talk to him about the emptiness that I feel. Lately, it's gotten worst and I'd cry myself to sleep hoping it'll go away. I don't know how to deal with this....