I was just reading another thread - and just thought of something insightful.... has anyone actually wanted a counter-transference response from their T? (Where it is happiness, anger, love, romantic.... etc)

I just had an "aha!" moment.... For those that have been reading about my experiences with my former T... perhaps I wanted her to feel something for me. The situation had greatly reflected a confusing relationship with my former professor, whom I thought would be a safe person to have romantic feelings for... until she developed feelings for me. And it didn't feel safe for me to explore.

For me, I think I was afraid former T would develop feelings - just as my professor had done. But at the same time, I wanted her too - just for the situation to feel 'complete'.
I think that is why I got so upset also when she terminated me so quickly after the blurry boundaries and compliments - did her feelings get too much for her and she didn't want to repeat what had previously happened with me? What would it mean for me if she did say she had feelings - would I feel hurt and unsafe again - hence she had to leave me before the relationship did not become therapeutic?
Just some interesting conversation!