Thing is...it is after 1am here and I am still up. I can not seem to quiet my brain down, and am actually worried about going to bedand sleep because I know the dreams will come after something like this.

So over it....but trying to accept....it is what it is....trying to find calm. Thanks OE. It is nice to have someone respond when you are struggling. It sometimes makes it worse when you come here and no one replies. But I also understand that if someone is also struggling it is often too hard to offer that support to others.

Big siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh