Well my appeal went ok - but my solicitor was right about the end result, I didn't even get to change my meds and I'm still on the CTO - my solicitor was awesome though, there was nothing more she could have done.

I'm just thinking if I'm going to die, what does it matter what I do, because there is going to be no consequence to what I do - because I'm going to be dead.
So what does it matter if I stab someone or get my knife out and make them confess - I'm not going to be here - so why should I care.