I hate to say, but ive gone downhill in the past two weeks. Ive been told numerous times that my therapist is abusing me emotionally and to find a new one. I cry at night thinking of leaving my T and never seeing her again. I had an intense dream about her. I obsess over T and our relationship all the time. I don't eat and I don't sleep much each night. I am paranoid at night when I am alone. Every day I am triggered to cut. My back and chest hurts all the time even when lying down in bed. And when I saw T Tuesday, I started pulling out my hair. I cant cope with T, I cant cope without her.