I Cant Cope

I hate to say, but ive gone downhill in the past two weeks. Ive been told numerous times that my therapist is abusing me emotionally and to find a new one. I cry at night thinking of leaving my T and never seeing her again. I had an intense dream about her. I obsess over T and our relationship all the time. I don't eat and I don't sleep much each night. I am paranoid at night when I am alone. Every day I am triggered to cut. My back and chest hurts all the time even when lying down in bed. And when I saw T Tuesday, I started pulling out my hair. I cant cope with T, I cant cope without her.

If a therapist and patient become rather close, the relationship can impinge on the therapist's ability to maintain a professional, holistic view of the patient and the entirety of the patient's situation. This can diminish the value of the therapy.

Weighing the pros and cons, does this therapeutic relationship still provide you with net value? Were you to terminate the relationship, would extra help (pdoc? new counselor?) be available to you quickly enough to assist you through the inevitable turmoil of the transition?

I don't mean to be harsh, but this sounds patently unhealthy. At the very least I would see a pdoc or outside psychologist to evaluate what is going on with your therapist.

Who is telling you the T is emotionally abusing you?
Do you think this is true?
What is she doing that is abusive?

It seems you have been doing very well GenCat for quite awhile now so something was working. You will get back to the place of doing well again.

Yes maybe talking to a professional objective third party about the relationship with T is in order. You don't want a T relationship to cause more harm than good.