Hi, this is my first time posting here or anywhere else regarding this subject...

I don't even know where to start =/
So, I'm 22 years old 1,70m tall (~ 5 feet 6 inches) and weight 120kg (~264 pounds), I know that I'm obese and I want to change that, but everytime I start exercising it only lasts a few days until I lose my will...

I spend most of my days alone in my room. I used to leave to go to college, but now I'm on vacation so I rarely leave. I even have lost interest on the games I used to play.

I have 4 friends, but they don't seem to consider me as much as a friend because they're not there for me as I'm for them. My "best friend" has been diagnosed with depression, but I think he's only sad because his gf cheated on him... When that happened he was in a pretty bad shape and I went to his house as soon as I could and spent a whole weekend with him until he felt better. But when I need to be with someone I have to ask to go there because he doesn't even notice that I'm worse than him.

My parents keep bothering me about losing weight and getting a job, but they never wondered why I never leave my room. I just feel like laying in my bed, cry and sleep all day.

Single for almost 3 years now... but I'll never meet someone because I never go out. Sometimes I want to go out, but I give up when I realize I have no friend to go with me.

I'm unemployed for over 7 months now and I can't find another job, partly because I can't imagine myself leaving home to go to any of the jobs I look up. Sometimes, when I'm too sad, I like to buy stuff just to feel a little better, but since I'm unemployed I'm always in debt with the bank and I have to ask my father for money to pay it...

I'm unemployed for over 7 months now and I can't find another job, partly because I can't imagine myself leaving home to go to any of the jobs I look up. Sometimes, when I'm too sad, I like to buy stuff just to feel a little better, but since I'm unemployed I'm always in debt with the bank and I have to ask my father for money to pay it... So I feel like I'm just a burden for my family. Almost everyday when I go to sleep, I wish I don't wake up so my parents don't have to waste more money with me.

I don't think about suicide though, I know I wouldn't have strength to go on with it.

Sorry for the long post and bad english.