I don't go to therapy and I don't have anti-depressants because my family is struggling so I haven't told anyone. I mean if I died they could use my collage fund to keep going. I kind of want them to but I also don't. They are the reason why I'm depressed sometimes. They emotionally abuse me and my sister has told me to go die a couple of times today. I've heard it enough to not cry but it still hurts when your told to die from someone you helped raise. I mean we have never been close but like what the ****? (Pardon my French) I have never really been bullied I mean people talk **** bout me and I agree with them but I don't get beat up or they don't say it in front of me unless they do when I zone out or listen to music... They basically talk **** when I'm not listening.