My fiancé and me got into an argument because I felt like since today was one of my bad days, he didn't accept me. There was a lot to that argument. By the end of it, I needed to go out and buy a new door handle for the front door and after I fixed it, I downed the rest of my vodka. To me, it's not enough. I still want to drink more. He eventually came to me and hugged me tight and kissed me but I'm mad and hurt enough that I didn't want to accept it as anything meaningful. I just want to drink more. I want to forget that I am who i am