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Originally Posted by HazelGirl
Your MIL has been a total b**ch to you. I wouldn't feel sad about her death, either. But I would feel sad about other people feeling sad. It's okay to feel relief and a sense that it's almost over. You're not bad or wrong for feeling that. You're very caring towards others, and maybe it wouldn't be a good idea to tell your H how relieved you are (if you're feeling that way...I would feel relieved), but don't feel bad for your feelings. Your T will understand what you're going through, and all you have to do is get through this week and see her next week.  |
I know, i dont feel guilty, I can say on here, that I feel relieved about it. I have suffered tons, I feel empathy for those who will suffer her death. Even my h says she is so stubborn, the week before she told hospice, she wanted to outlive her sons, and she will fight death, as it is now, this is what she is doing, and its totally so unfair to her sons. its such a guilt trip. I think I should let my neediness pride down and call my t and tell her how I feel. H has been helping me out alot, he has been stepping up to the plate, it took this for him to realize how they both took advantage of me.
I dont feel anything towards this woman, but the moans and groans affect me. Its like I am angry. At one point I felt like it was not ok for me to paint because i felt it was not appropriate, but its what I enjoy doing.
Last thursday, I injured myself for picking her up to put a bedpan underneath her i think i have sciatica now because i am in such pain my back radiating down to the knee, my knee is numb, cant even go to doctor, until she is gone.