If I were the kind of guy to do that sort of thing, I would.

Fortunately, I don't drink alcohol ... at all. Never. As in ... I've never even tasted hard liquor. I've tasted beer and wine (blech!!!!)

But honestly, I feel like that ... I just want to numb myself emotionally. It was kind of an intense week, and it wasn't even a BAD week. I had a big, big project at work to finish ... and it is DONE. That's the good news. The bad news is ... the recipient is going to look at my work, nitpick it, and complain about every little thing. Not because of anything I did ... because that is how that person is ... a charming personality, half cobra, half dead fish. So, I will try NOT to take it personally, but I know if nothing else, it will mean a lot of frustration, wasted time, and back and forth next week.

So, yes, I want to just go emotionally dead. I don't know if that is healthy or not. Probably not.

There was a time in my life when I would have had the worst craving to binge out on something along the lines of lasagna, and chase it down with a big bowl of Stroh's Mackinac Island Moose Tracks ice cream.

I have to do a family errand tonight. But with luck, I'll be in bed by 9 PM. Then I can get up at like 2 AM and hit the road on my bike.

THAT is what saves me - I spoke of this in another thread today. I would truly have offed myself by now if I didn't have that.

So, I guess I am actually using that as an alternative addiction. Is that healthy? Well ... I gotta say ... get addicted to booze or drugs, you cause a lot of trouble for yourself, legally, mentally. Get addicted to food, you F up your physical health, and have to be treated like a pariah because you are "fat". Get addicted to exercise, and, while the "average American" might not get it, if you fall in with the right crowd, the guys (and women!) who think a 40 mile ride is just a warm-up, and all you get is high-fives and "keep it up, but push harder NEXT ride."

So, if I have to have an addiction, I think the choice is obvious. I guess I could stop at Performance Bicycle on the way home and treat myself to a new road jersey or something -- probably healthier than a 5th of Stoli anyway.