Right , so a couple of days of lower dose has actually made me feel much better in terms of the grogginess !! I'm trying to make some positive changes by making sure my home is as nice and peaceful as it can be and taking advice from HR about whether I can move to a different team under the same employer so not dealing with the same thing at work :S
Hopefully that won't backfire because I've tried to keep my health out of it and just focused on if I'm in a different team then I can access help for my son without worrying about running into families I'm working with
Still seems like a lot of hard work and struggling with my motivation but did manage to take son out to do the tree top assault course he wanted to do for his birthday and bless him , he only baulked at the zip wire (after I'd gone down it and wanted to widdle the whole way !!!)