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Originally Posted by ThisWayOut
I'm having a really difficult time with the self-injury right now. It hurts to do it. I normally give it a break when it hurts. But the body memories are intensifying, as are the memories that follow them. I can't get the level of self-harm needed to stop the body memories. It's really frustrating. And I don't see my therapist till Friday. I'm really wishing it was friday tomorrow... 
(other coping skills are also not working. I have tried a whole bunch of them on my list over and over again... :/) |
I don't entirely understand what a body memory is, but I do understand how it's affecting you and the struggle you are currently feeling.
Is there a way, if you can't stop the self harm to remove all of the objects you use except one small thing (e.g. I use something to prick my fingers, but even if I used that tool to full on stab myself it would be at most a 1/2 inch deep and very unlikely to cause any serious damage)? That way maybe you can have that option to harm safely? I know it sounds contradictory because you're allowing the harm, but its a contained harm and seemingly a necessary evil at least until Friday.
I'm sorry to hear that your coping skills are not working at the moment. Is there anyway you can try to be around someone (even as uncomfortable as it may be) just for most of tomorrow to help push you through?