I have always been depressed and have always been told by my family and friends to cheer up and get over it. They never seemed to understand the darkness that would fill me and seem to pull me down so far that I felt completely alone and utterly useless. I finally got so tired of people telling me that I'm just trying to get attention that I started putting on my "happy face". Anyone who had done this knows how much harder it is to function when you are trying to hide yourself from the world so you aren't viewed differently. I have never been officially diagnosed with depression but I have been diagnosed with PCOS and depression is one of the symptoms. I have taken several online assessments that have never failed to light up red with 'severe depression' as the results. I have a wonderful husband and two beautiful children but just can't seem to deal with this. I cry and hide it from my family. My husband and I are rarely intimate and when we are it hard for me to enjoy it. I'm tired and always in pain. I just don't know what else to do. It seems like it's getting harder to function daily and I have no way to see a Dr. I have no insurance. My husband and i both work but have both been dropped to part time so we have no health coverage but the children do. I need some advise. How can I deal with this with no help? How can I cheer up and get over it?