Thank you both for your advice, I used to keep fit all the time but ive been working in security for 3 years now and I work atleast 56 hours a week so I dont really have time for a life lol. I do try to not see things in black and white but ive been like this so long its hard not to. I wish I could have a week off but I cant afford to have the time off

but I really do appreciate you both for your advice thank you