ahhhhhhhhhh there out to get me, or are they?

I read an artical earlier about a guy who started a new job and everything was grate but a few months down the line his attitude had changed now everyone was out to get him. This man had boredline porsonality disorder just like me.

The whole story I read was just like my experiance at work. I really do believe there trying to get my sacked

My question is how do I tell if my work mates are out to get me or am I just being mental?

I also posted in the work fourm

I get like that in situations including previous jobs and i have bpd. It seems so real and ive always believed i was right but noe after reading your post im starting to doubt my self. A past social worker of mine did say that people with bpd see things differently than how others do. Maybe a week off work would help you figure things out and if you have a t then discuss it with them. Its not that we imagine it but we read deaply into things and jump to the worse conclusion. Do you like going to the gym? It releases endorphines and makes you feel happy and good about your self.

Remember... we're a sensitive species. Lol, you know what I mean.
Every facial gesture, word, movement, action and intention is skillfully analyzed, judged and reported to the general consciousness... as something a little more distorted than reality. You expect to be conspired against and victimized... and then you see it.

It's entirely possible you have less than friendly relationships at work.. but not ALL of them. You need to try and engage your logic against these notions. How likely is it that EVERYONE is trying to get you fired? Or even half the people in your work?
It's so unlikely you have you make yourself feel it. Like... this just doesn't make sense. Then really consider some things...
Why am I feeling this so strongly?
Am I paranoid about their opinions of me? Am I insecure about my work performance? Am I insecure about interactions with them? Do I think I'm not great enough, what they want, for them to like me at all?

You're never, 'just being mental'
And like using logic, we have to combat the black and white thinking. They do not either want to get rid or you, or you are 'mental'
It's very likely, through stresses in life, and especially work, you're going deeper into your BPD and letting it have free reign over your thought processes and conclusions.

You need to step back, analyze logically and go from there. Do you need to address this in depth in therapy? Do you need some medication to help you feel happier and stable and able to look past these issues?

Hope you're okay though, robbstar

Thank you both for your advice, I used to keep fit all the time but ive been working in security for 3 years now and I work atleast 56 hours a week so I dont really have time for a life lol. I do try to not see things in black and white but ive been like this so long its hard not to. I wish I could have a week off but I cant afford to have the time off

but I really do appreciate you both for your advice thank you

I completely agree with cryingontheinside and Korana, here. I think hypervigilance is a problem a lot of us borderlines have. I have it, big time.

I have proven myself wrong about people many times.

Our biggest issue is balance in anything. Emotions, relationships, vices, work... It's all extreme somehow. I've been working with my BPD a long time and the only way to truly be the ruler of my own life is to throw myself into the logic pool and suss out all the issues, trying to ignore the emotions telling me, 'You're having relationship issues... therefore this relationship is suddenly wrong. He doesn't love you. He hates you. This is wrong' Just from everyday issues. It needs to be meet on the battlefield and confronted.

You may develop different coping methods... but you need to work towards finding some.
Dealing the the aftermath of emotion isn't enough to build a fulfilling life with this disorder.

You need to be able to pull yourself in half. The BPD side, and the rational side. Normally, hopefully, they exist as peacefully as possible, but when things go south you need to pull them apart and look at them side by side on the big and the small issues. It's a way to gain perspective.
You absolutely can take a hold of black and white thinking. Just try. Stop a conclusion before it's verbalized, and pull it apart.

And you absolutely work too much. Not to be general, but the stress of over 50 hours a week is insane. I don't know your work history and financial situation, but are there better options for you out there? You should take a look around and see, just look. No need to leap into new life changes, just see if there are better jobs in the world that benefit your health.

Your number one priority in the world must be taking care of you.

Unfortunately, what we fear we make ourselves more vulnerable to by doing so; consider that in the movie Conspiracy Theory, Mel Gibson's character having already garnered a reputation for being paranoid and delusional, and almost visibly embodying those qualities, is unable to get help once he finds himself is in a real situation that he can't effectively communicate to others. I think this is a good portrait of the struggle that often occurs for us internally, when we don't know whether to believe our own perceptions, in situations that are emotionally charged for us.

When I find myself struggling to differentiate the effects of my own mental filters with a situation itself, I write down on paper what the observable "evidence" I've noticed, and try to do so without emotion. (Sometimes this takes a bit of editing, to remove the emotion. Limiting use of subjective adjectives and subjectively worded adverbs can help.) Just looking at the information plainly like that might provide some insight in itself. But you might consider calling someone who both knows you and has worked successfully in a similar working climate (be it corporate, family business, or whatever). If you work at a big company, and know someone familiar with the company's specific culture (but not someone you work with directly who would not be able to be objective, or could cause a mishap by accidentally saying something that got to the wrong person), that could be especially helpful.

When I do this, I use my notes to run it by him or her, again being as clinical as I can about it, not adding to what I've written (though it might be a good idea in any event to remind the person that it's possible some emotion could creep in). In my experience, people tend to be glad for an opportunity to put this kind of cultural knowledge to use, in order to be able to help others.

Your results may vary, but this has been helpful to me.

Im guessing its not something ill learn over night lol, thank you for all your advice im going to try everything you've suggested . Up untill a few weeks ago I thought I was just depressed id never even heard of bpd its all so new. thank you for all your advice all of you I couldnt cope with out you