I always have. I can't remember ever feeling even remotely good about myself. It's always been hate, hate, hate. Because I'm fat, because I'm ugly, because I can't do anything right and when I do try something it always has to suck. I hate myself because I'm lame and can't fit in with other people my age (teens) because my interests are to different from theirs. I hate my fat *** body and how I can't fit into nice-looking clothes so I always have to walk around in frumpy-looking **** because I can't afford the $40 shirts on Torrid and sites like that. I hate my ugly face and how it looks bad no matter what I do with it, makeup, no makeup. I hate the fact that I'm 17 and never had a boyfriend, never been kissed or even held hands with a guy. I feel like no one will ever want me and that I might as well give up on ever finding love because it ain't happenin'! Not for a ******-*** ugly **** like me, no way. I hate myself because I'm shy and can't talk to people and I don't even have any friends. I feel so unloved and unappreciated. I hate it that everyone thinks they can treat me bad because I'm 'soft' and 'vulnerable'. (I'm naturally a sensitive person, so when someone insults me I can't just "brush it off".) I hate it when my mom and sister encourage me to talk more but when I finally try to talk they interrupt me and don't apologize, don't even ask me what I was going to say. I'm sorry for the rant, I just really hate myself right now.