I wish I could just do that, I have resorted to sleeping these days but I get really bad dreams. The bad dreams are not really the problem, and I feel like I had a sound sleep, but I feel miserable when I wake up, I feel like something will go wrong, or something really, really bad happened while I was asleep.

It takes me a while to calm down, but before I can calm down completely, I'm on the run.

****, that's all I can say, I'm not doing well.