I understand Teacake. Its just that I know how it can feel when PTSD gets really bad. I hit a point that I wasn't psychotic, but I couldn't get out of bed, my brain was running amok 24 hours a day and the "kill yourself" thoughts just wouldn't stop. I started 2mgs a day of risperdal and it was an almost magical difference an hour after the first dose. It kept me out of the hospital.

I still take a really low dose, and I think it helps me, but I'm probably going to see if I can do without it soon.