I can relate to this post so much. My biggest issue in life is my guilt and sadness over my parenting. I have a 15yo and 13yo and thankfully my husband is great enough to off-set me. I have raged at my kids so many times. I yell and yell and say awful things and then Go back and apologize after, but the horror I feel inside is overwhelming. Going on meds has helped a lot, but it still happens. The worst was about a year ago when my son said he wished Daddy and I would get a divorce so that he could live with Daddy. Being a parent is so draining because most of the time I just want to be doing my own thing and not taking care of anyone else. I worry all the time about all of this.