Maybe this should go in the "relations" part of the forum... But it's also related to disphoria and I'm more comfortable here... Also hi! Long time no be here eh?

Before I get this rant started, il just explain that I live withy aunt and uncle because... Complicated past with parents............. Moving on...

Oh and also bare in mind that I'm still in the closet with family.

I'm starting to question me being trans... Like sure being a guy sucks for me and I'd much rather be a girl, but my life seems to be getting better. My career in voice acting is taking off, I have a love interest (we like each other but aren't ready for a "relationship"; at least she isn't.) and some other good things... I do really want a career in voice over, but I'd half to keep my voice the way it is and my regular voice is low; it's hard to maintain a good female sounding voice. But then my disphoria kicks in and... I wish, I get depressed, I cry, and dwell on my past and get pissed...
Right now, I'm pissed at my guardians. My uncle is literally retarded and just dosnt know... What.... Anything is really. He'll often talk to me about things... Things that get my disphoria going. my aunt is a BEE EYE TEE SEA ACH. And here's why...
So the girl that I mentioned earlier, we may be interested but we are still just friends. But for some reason my aunt disapproves of our friendship. I've tried to explain to her that we are just friends, but she just won't listen. It's been a month or two of my aunt ALWAYS annoying me whenever I leave the house asking me if I'm meeting anyone... The girl specifically. And it's really getting ****ing annoying.
TODAY, I was going to hang out with a bunch of friends. As I was going, my aunt asked me if that girl was going to be there. I didn't know... Then she said... That I should stay away from her because it's inappropriate for a guy my age to be hanging out with girls her age. (1.5 year difference... I don't think it's a big deal) she also said that she talked to her saying the same. So my aunt is trying to keep me from my friends..... I don't think it was that long ago when she said that I should make friends... Anyways, 1. She triggered a huge spike of disphoria that I just stopped crying about... 2. She's invading my life.
I just don't know what to do about this. It's so full of ******** that I just don't know what to do...
And I'm also questioning me being trans...

Well thanks for letting me rant/vent/rage... Whatever you want to call it...