I don't think you've ever wanted it. But you've always had to get it. Most of the time, it's by you getting recalled to the hospital. Sometimes you've tried to fight it, and it has been unpleasant for you. But you've always gotten it.

So I understand not wanting it, but you don't have a choice.. except to get it easy or hard. I just think doing it easy would be better for you. It's stressful to do it the hard way.