i get upset whenever i think about things that might eventually run out. the idea that nothing lasts forever is incredibly upsetting to me, regardless of whether or not i've become fond of that particular material. it sort of makes me really anxious when i remember that nothing will ever be permanent, because then i don't feel particularly safe and taken care of.

i don't personally think i become extremely attached to certain objects? but i am very reluctant to move onto newer, better things simply because i'm not sure how well they'll hold up. i'm used to breaking my items due to attempting to use them as a stim or fidget toy, or with electronics breaking because i have extremely bad luck with electronics, and i do get upset concerning that. i lost my hard drive very recently and while i was trying not to be upset about it, i kind of did get upset after it hit me just exactly what i lost, including a whole folder of my best friend's art. it sucks!