More experience than insight. Got about 25 years worth of experience but I used to always be the last to know there was a problem. I've had a med regimen for about 10 years now and life hasn't been that bad. I posted a highlight but the reality of the situation is a lot more complex. 20 years ago no one depended on me so self destructive behavior didn't hurt anyone but me. Now that isn't true. Still on the meds but I believe there has been a shift in chemistry. The time of year is a concern too. Mania is common for me in the fall, and has led to hospitalizations in November.