Hello all,

I'm posting this in the Depression sub forum since I think this is what it might be. For a while now I've felt that I have nothing to look forward to in life. To sum up my "story":

- Always felt that if I worked hard I could have a happy life (good job, girlfriend/wife, maybe children some day when I'm older etc.)
- Worked hard, developed very strong but unreciprocated feelings for someone
- That someone is doing better than me in life now despite my having worked hard all this time

When I look at the future I see nothing to look forward to. I try to picture "positive" things that could happen but I a) don't believe that they actually will and b) that even if some things happen that other people might call "positive" they won't make me happy.

I feel like my life is pointless and I'm worthless. A friend of mine has suggested I seek treatment but the process of getting that paid for is very complex where I live. I also don't think that treatment could help me and don't really want it either.

I've been increasingly honest with my family about how I feel about my life and some of the things I say worry them (I'll leave it at that as per the rules).

I'm not sure why I'm posting here as I know no solution can be offered (it doesn't exist). Maybe I'm just looking for attention or sympathy.