Yes, I know this is for depression, but as my diagnosis are SDD and BPD, this is where I go. And yes, I'm starting to panic. My daughters wedding is at 1:00pm tomorrow, and I'm freaking out!!! Not because she's getting married, but because I'm going to be surrounded by people, most I don't know, and most that I do know, I don't want to see. Especially my brother, who I worked for for a time, but who fired me for getting a devil tattoo, as that made me a Satan worshipper. (I'm an atheist)

Being a very misanthropic person to begin with, I don't do well dealing with people. Reason being...I don't like people. So tomorrow is going to SUCK!!!
The only positive thing is, my ex is going to be there with out two little ones, so I will have some support. Even so, I know everybody is going to be staring at me with that "there is the freak who cuts himself and spends half his life in the funny farm" looks on their faces. Am I wrong to beg the gods for a catastrophic meteor impact?? Why can't I go to sleep and simply never wake up??

Sorry, I'm rambling. Don't know what else to do at this point.