This is a very good advise. I just don't know how that would look like. This is what I'm trying all the time. Doing what I want sounds like the best thing ever, except that I don't know what that is.

I've actually been spending more time thinking about that since I started therapy. It's always been a very good feeling if I found something, I mean something very specific. So then I knew something I could do to try and get it.

Low self esteem just shows up in specific situations. like when dating. or when competing with colleagues.
I don't know why I have this problem. In a way I think it is just unlikely I get anything like that. even if everyone around me does. and I know they are not so different from me. so it is actually likely I could have the same. I still feel like there is an invisible wall keeping me from it. as if I wasn't a part of this reality. but just some imaginary person who is watching.