As someone who has used self harm as a sort of treatment for my manic depression for the last twelve or so years I always used it for the control aspect be it cutting or wrist banging. I can't control how I feel or what goes on in my head nor can I really control what goes on on the out side (things like weight gain from meds).

The only thing I could and can control was and is what kind of pain I can put myself though. After years of using it to punish and control myself I would say to anyone who has used it once to stop now before it becomes second nature and you don't have to think before trying self harm as an option.

When you can stop you don't want to. And when you want to you can't stop.