I'm 48 now and in my twenties i was in a marriage somewhat like yours. My ex and i had almost nothing in common. Still, it was incredibly painful to get divorced. I miss the little things like how he would call me in the middle of the day, every day. It meant so much to me that someone on the planet would take action for me. It made me feel alive.
I've been on my own for nearly twenty years. There ARE things i like about it such as the independence and freedom and not having to negotiate on every little thing. It's lonely, tho. People make a fuss when anyone says their death would have almost no impact, but aside from my dog, my death would truly have very little. It hurts to know i matter to no one.
I'd encourage you to make every effort you can to make your marriage work.
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