Situational crap can trigger episodes, which then need med adjustments and this is a lot of crap Are you still able to see your T? Try not to feel guilty, it's okay for you to be unwell, you take care of each other. Rant, whine, *****, stomp your feet, kick things, anything you need to do to get yourself through this. Can the kids go through the house and choice things that have fond memories of? I know you've been trying to hold on this long.Try to go through one closet size area at a time.