Amandalouise,

Thank you for your comments which I read carefully. Yes, I knew about all of that except that Complex PTSD had been updated.

My therapist and I only use labels when they are useful. Now, I am sure he has them on record. But they make me worse - why?

Because I have also gone through Domestic Abuse - I am struggling to heal from that as well as all the other symptoms, so I am struggling to regain myself as a person. I don't do well when labels are brought up because I feel they reduce my "personhood" to a "just" a label.

I won't go into that further, except that my ex is actively stalking me (online, in person, through family and friends, etc) and he is dangerous and I think possibly psychotic (I am serious).

So my personal safety is at stake and I hate living like this.

I also moved to another town within the last 3 months. It was a long move and I did it due to ex's stalking and because there was a strict church hurting me in the city I was in - and because I was at high altitude which bothered me too (physically).

I do like my new home but I'm still in temporary lodging, getting used to a new job, wondering about my future.

And I'm new to therapy.

And I suppose those are enough triggers for anybody. At least I think so.

So thank you for your comments - I do not take many meds and have been advised on it, but side effects are so serious, that even my medical providers think I'm right in not taking them if I can help it.

Its a tough way to go, but I'm doing my best to hang in there. I'm a little better as of today.

Thanks again for all you wrote.