I have 1 child whom I conceived bore the "regular" way. Which often leads people (the few who know something(s) happened) to believe that I have no problems with sex.

They weren't there when I broke down crying during or right after on many occasions. The didn't hear me calculating standard deviations in my head instead of focusing on what was actually happening, and they didn't see me dissociate, go far away. Oddly enough, except when it was really obvious I was crying- neither did my then husband.

Since the divorce, I have been happily sex free for... 8 years. It is like I got my kid, and there is no more motivation to have sex for me. I have a hard time imagining ever wanting it again. Although... I saw a book on Amazon entitled Experimenting with Babies: 50 Amazing Science Projects You Can Perform on Your Kid . It makes me wanna have another baby.