hi greenspark
i can honestly say i dont even know what the r stands for. i assume the rest is obsessive compulsive disorder. i can certainly understand how distressful wanting to have that connection to your girlfriend and not being able to achieve it due to mental health issues cause i have connection issues of my own. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome