Thanks so much all of you for your support. I can't tell you how helpful it has been.

You know what hurts the most, I don't think even one of them will take any responsibility for my being upset because I’m just a “nut case." Their egos will tell them that I'm to blame for it going so badly. They’ll blame my reaction on my mental illness and walk away smugly saying they tried to help and then criticize me for being “unreasonable.” I’m very familiar with this tactic used by mental health professionals. They use our mental illness against us to not take responsibility for being insensitive.

I was in a room full of inflated egos. I was angry because I felt intimidated and unheard and that no one there took into consideration that I was getting severely triggered. My T could have at least taken me out of the room for a moment to calm me down, not make fun of the fact that I was angry. I’ve lost faith in everything and everybody, especially myself. I feel so alone in all of this. I don’t know if I can ever trust another therapist now and don’t know where to turn or who to turn to. There’s no one who can help me.