Yes, I get this. I feel much the same way as you describe, Hellion. The main difference is I'm old. So at this point I know I'll never accomplish anything of any consequence & I no longer care. I don't have any friends. But that's okay too. I don't want any. I am married (which is probably the only reason I'm not either a homeless drunk or dead.) But beyond that, I just want to be left to my solitude. I don't drink or smoke or do drugs. My addictions include black tea (caffeine) & the internet.