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Originally Posted by Hooligan
Hi hungrysociety
Nice to see you on the bp forum.
I have definitely had issues at work.
Some have outright been related to my bp. It's been a real challenge for me to work when I'm depressed. And I've done some pretty stupid things at work in the past whilst I continued to work whilst manic.
This year until September (I'm currently not working) - it was an extreme challenge for me. It practically have anxiety attacks every day before going to work. I started developing odd behaviour. I'd get to work an hour to an hour and a half before I had to be, just to get a parking. Yes, I was afraid I wouldn't get a parking. So I'd get there at 7am every morning when no one was there. I found it really challenging interacting with staff. And I felt very threatened by management - like they were constantly watching me.
I've lost 3 jobs in the past due to mental health issues.
Not easy.
And so my merry go round cycle begins again.
You are definitely not alone in this.
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I'm so glad that someone else feels threatened by the management (though I also feel that way with other staff members). That's my experience exactly, like they have eyes everywhere and I'm being watched. It makes me paranoid, and frightened.
I'm sorry that you've had this experience, too. I don't know what to do about it. I've been steadily losing my sense of self-worth for the last year or so. I'm not sure what the point of me is if I'm not making money and helping instead of being a burden.