Hi guys, I hope you all don't mind me joining the party here... I'm facing this issue as well and I feel like I'm going to burst...

I want to stop wanting my ex to care for me. We've been on and off and had been in contact recently, until I stopped contacting her after realizing I'm still the asshole I was before to her. She'd still contact me every now and then, and I would do my best not to reply to stop screwing up further.

But it doesn't help the fact that the first and last thing I do everyday--and almost every hour--is to check if she's texted me and see when's she last seen online. I want this to stop, I want to stop obsessing over her, I want to stop being this asshole I had always been--and was, when we were together--I want to move on with life. But all I can think about it is her.

I know I deserve this torture as I had been that asshole when we were together. But I still can't help but want her to talk to me, want to know she still cares for me. And I want to stop feeling this way. I want to stop being this asshole. I know it's all messed up, and I want all of it to stop...