i am supposed to go watch fireworks tonight. last year i flipped out. discussed it with t last session and turned out it was an alter. we discussed ways to make the alter more comfortable this year. i have been freaking out since yesterday about going making up all kinds of excuses not to go. my alter has flat out let me know she does not want to go when i just journaled. (we are coconscious) i have so much anxiety about this. i want to respect her but then again, i don't want this anxiety running my life.