I'm not wanting to go on, my body is falling apart. I don't think the neurologist has me right, and people don't understand. I had to leave work early, from my nuerological disorder destroyed my movement and it hurts so bad. I just want to die, it's so painful now. It's gotten worse, I really don't want to be in a wheel chair and reliant on people till I'm old. If I have to die young to avoid this, I'll do it. I'm that desperate. I don't get the care I need, and I'd rather die poor now. I feel there isn't anything I can do than just accept it and roll with the punches.

People don't care, and they aren't helpful. I'd either get pity or mistreatment from misunderstanding. I'm done, I lost hope, I hate all of you for bringing me here and having me stay here. I'm just done.